Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Nov 16, 2016 7:25:58 GMT
"Tired of kneeling?" She asked with a hint of a half-smile, but stood up to move to the nearest couch anyway.
"Do you think we could have done it..." It was half a question and half just a thought spoken aloud. Truthfully there was very little she could think of that she actually wanted to talk about right then, but sometimes needs impose themselves over wants and she'd been frequently repeating that question in her mind for the past few months already.
If Holly had survived, could they have been even decent parents if tried? Sure, the redhead's guild had a lot of younglings and it could be argued some of her adult workers at time acted like toddlers, but that was different from actually rising a child of their own. In fact when faced with any kids who didn't have at least a minimum of independence enough to maintain themselves without adult supervision for a couple days, CAEsAL by default directed them towards orphanages or boarding schools instead due to lack of structure to keep them without an actual guardian figure and Edelweiss couldn't ever recall holding a baby for more than a couple hours straight. As for Amon... mental stability was a rather important variable, right. And for a matter of fact both of their respective parents lived in the middle of nowhere.
Part of Edelweiss' mind had started thinking if that was for the best (for it and that she never had to face a literal swarm of murderous clockwork dolls while bearing a baby) but the other half of her couldn't help but wonder 'what if'.
And also...
"I think this was the first time I heard you talking of recent nightmares. Do you have them often?" Was having sleep issues something standard to guild leaders? Both herself and Lasair also had their own variations of it anyway. Although she couldn't be sure if Caitlin had that too..
"Do you think we could have done it..." It was half a question and half just a thought spoken aloud. Truthfully there was very little she could think of that she actually wanted to talk about right then, but sometimes needs impose themselves over wants and she'd been frequently repeating that question in her mind for the past few months already.
If Holly had survived, could they have been even decent parents if tried? Sure, the redhead's guild had a lot of younglings and it could be argued some of her adult workers at time acted like toddlers, but that was different from actually rising a child of their own. In fact when faced with any kids who didn't have at least a minimum of independence enough to maintain themselves without adult supervision for a couple days, CAEsAL by default directed them towards orphanages or boarding schools instead due to lack of structure to keep them without an actual guardian figure and Edelweiss couldn't ever recall holding a baby for more than a couple hours straight. As for Amon... mental stability was a rather important variable, right. And for a matter of fact both of their respective parents lived in the middle of nowhere.
Part of Edelweiss' mind had started thinking if that was for the best (for it and that she never had to face a literal swarm of murderous clockwork dolls while bearing a baby) but the other half of her couldn't help but wonder 'what if'.
And also...
"I think this was the first time I heard you talking of recent nightmares. Do you have them often?" Was having sleep issues something standard to guild leaders? Both herself and Lasair also had their own variations of it anyway. Although she couldn't be sure if Caitlin had that too..