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Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Aug 7, 2016 4:51:57 GMT
"Thanks." That compliment of his was sudden and unexpected in Edelweiss' eyes, and ended up getting a light chuckle out of her - although his comments following that made her amused expression shift into one of mild confusion. "......?"
What had her being with Amon have to do with the time she was currently spending with Lasair? There was no rule stopping her from interacting with other people, and they weren't doing anything wrong - and as for his crying, although it was a bit of an unusual (and saddening) sight, everyone needed to vent and cry once in a while. Even adults, and neither the fellow redhead nor herself were exceptions, if he can recall the very events of the past night. Having feelings is not a sin. "I like spending time with you, Las. Though I'm not very sure what you mean that my relationship would interfere with it."
"All power tends to corrupt and absolute power corrupts absolutely. Great men are almost always bad men." - John Dalberg-Acton
Post by Lasair Landevier Lupen on Aug 7, 2016 5:57:11 GMT
Sitting up straight and rubbing his eyes, he matched her look of confusion with one of his own. She didn’t understand what he meant? Did he want to explain it to her? Well, that answer didn’t matter, given that he would probably have to no matter what now. He sighed a moment as he thought about the words he wanted to use and the right way to use them.
“Well… I don’t want you to take this the wrong way, and you usually don’t take things the wrong way, but the need to say it was worth the breath.” He shifted a bit as his eyes looked away. “You know what happened in that field. It wasn’t that long ago. We’re close. I don’t know how close, but you’re one of my closest friends. And normally all of that would be okay, but then Amon returned, and you went back to him, picking things back up where they left off, so to say.” He paused, changing his mind about how to say the next part. “And well. Most people wouldn’t be so,” he fumbled, trying to find the word, moving his hands around. “Close? With someone else, not while you’re devoted to one at least. I already feel bad that I’m doing, well, all of this, while I know you’re with him. So I guess what I mean to say is, I appreciate that you’re so kind to me despite the fact that it’s…” he trailed off, trying to pick out a good word or phrase again. “Not a normal thing people in your position would do.”
It was at that point he realized he was starting to ramble, so he stopped himself, a small blush coming to his face. He lifted a hand and scratched the back of his head, eyes still fixated at some point that wasn’t in the direction of Edelweiss.
Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Aug 7, 2016 7:02:35 GMT
Edelweiss raised an eyebrow. Wow. That was a lot of rambling, and he was blushing too. That was pretty unusual considering Lasair was... well, Lasair. It was kind of cute, but also kind of awkward. Rather than her taking it the wrong way, he seemed to be misunderstanding something. "Um, Las? My face is up here." She pointed to her face as his gaze seemed to have strayed somewhere unimportant between the cushion nearby on the couch and the plush carpet below their feet.
Once he finished spilling all his thoughts out, she figured it was better to reply to them by parts. One thing at a time. "As things stand, I don't see how you - or me - might be doing something one should feel bad about. Yes we're close, and yes you’re one of my closest friends. And that is ok." She could understand him maybe being embarrassed for being seen crying, due to society bias expecting men to be incapable of sorrow at points, but not why should be embarrassed by being in her presence. "I don't regret the morning of that field; Amon being back doesn't change the fact I was alone then. You actually were there for me when no one else was, that should count as something. Your worth to me is unrelated to my relationship with him or any other interaction I might have with people. And we're not doing anything shameful in here."
And not that she felt ranting about Amon to Lasair was all that comfortable or easy to do, but aparently it was necessary that she clears some things to him since he seemed so determined to fret about it. "You don't suddenly know a person in a day. I took, what, at least half a year to know Amon - or I thought I knew him at least." Although the Amon she knew would have known better than to leave her in the dark for so long if there was a choice not to. Forgiveness was different from forgetfulness. But that's why she was trying to understand him. "I want to find out whether or not he's still the person I fell in love with, and if not then if I can still love the person he became. Not like I stayed exactly the same either, got a couple extra cracks through the months. Sure, I might have some good glue keeping me together right now, but that's different than nothing being wrong at all."
Post by Lasair Landevier Lupen on Aug 7, 2016 7:39:03 GMT
He didn’t acknowledge her comment about where her face was located, because he was determined not to look at her right then. His thoughts were preoccupied elsewhere, namely in sorting out the jumble of his head. But he listened as she spoke to him, internalizing her words and thinking them over. So, she didn’t value Amon over him? Is that what she was saying? It was something to think about and he took his time in speaking up to her again.
He turned to look at her then, nodding his head. “That makes sense. I didn’t see it that way before. I thought, well.” I thought you loved him more than you could love me. “I thought you were already back with him. I got that impression yesterday, I mean.” He sighed, feeling somewhat ashamed of himself for the way he was acting suddenly. “Sorry. I just, I thought I was starting to cross lines I shouldn’t. And I don’t deny I enjoy what we have. But, that enjoyment isn’t worth causing problems in the future.” He sighed again, leaning forward a bit. He couldn’t believe the messes his mind got him into sometimes.
Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Aug 7, 2016 8:25:40 GMT
"You mean yesterday back when my head was a complete mess and I was openly freaking out and having an emotional breakdown at the same time?" If so, she hoped he could please disregard how crazy she my have sounded yesterday. She closed her eyes for a moment and raised a hand trying to rub away the bright red tone that took over her face. How did he even endure talking to her (or overall hearing/reading her talk) altogether was beyond her understanding now. It's got to be a talent, that was the only explanation.
Edelweiss sighed. "He promised he would make it up to me. I don't know how, but the only way to be sure is giving him a chance to do that. So yes, me and Amon are dating, if that's what you were confused about. But it's like we went back to a blank slate." A restart, rather than a continuation. There was a difference in there. There was a saying that you know you really love someone when you cannot hate them for breaking your heart, but she's not trying to mathematically measure how much that is so. In one point Lasair got it right, that she didn't consider his (or anyone's) value dependant of someone else's. He was himself, and that was all her heart needed to judge.
"And no, you weren't crossing any lines here, nor causing a problem. If there's a point where I think you are or that you're making me uncomfortable, I promise I'll let you know." That, and their usual talks - be it about magic or about their personal thoughts on things - were among the few things she had the freedom to be completely honest about in her life. There was so much he didn't even know about her and she couldn't tell, about her job and her guild, and all the things she did. He likely wouldn't be so worried about her liking him or not, nor keen of remaining geographically close to her if he knew. What sane person would?
"...It's the first time I saw you so flustered though." She commented finally, giving a sympathethic little smile. Was he alright? Although that was also a wee bit amsing, and since he was leaning forward again enough to be within reach, she couldn't resist reaching out a hand and squishing one of his cheeks like an annoying aunt. "Are you ok?"
Post by Lasair Landevier Lupen on Aug 8, 2016 0:30:38 GMT
Listening quietly as she spoke, he nodded along slowly, gradually relaxing as she explained things further. He was still a bit on edge, but at least Lasair had gotten the majority of his thoughts out in the open and she had taken them well.
Smiling a little as she squished his cheek, he lifted a hand and lowered hers. “I’m alright. I hope you can be happy with Amon. And if not, I hope you’ll be able to find someone else instead. You deserve happiness, in one form or another. And if I’m not causing any issues, then I’ll be glad to hang around from time to time. You seem to enjoy the company. Or you’re good at faking it, at least.” He chuckled a little bit, but it sounded somewhat forced.
Taking a breath, he straightened himself and sat up properly. He would have commented about getting flustered, but figured it would be better to leave that unspoken. She didn’t need to know all the details about what things irked him more than others.
Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Sept 14, 2016 7:56:46 GMT
"Thanks." She replied with a small smile, that was still resting on her lips though it got a raised eyebrow added to it at that last comment of it. "I might need to fake pleasantness on the entertainment business occasionaly when meeting the more stuffy patrons, but not on our talks, you can rest assured of that. Never saw a reason to. And you're genuinely nice to be around."
She stood up to take the empty coffee mugs back to the kitchen and wash them. "Are you going to stick around till lunch, or are going to be needed somewhere else before that?"
"All power tends to corrupt and absolute power corrupts absolutely. Great men are almost always bad men." - John Dalberg-Acton
Post by Lasair Landevier Lupen on Sept 20, 2016 21:59:19 GMT
Nodding, he stood up as well and stretched his arms some. “I should probably head back now, but it was very nice spending time here.” A light smile came to his face as he followed her to the kitchen, maintaining conversation. “Any last thoughts to share before I go?” he asked, figuring it would at least be nice to offer, even if there wasn’t anything else to share at the moment.
Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Sept 21, 2016 17:23:52 GMT
"Hmm..." She thought for a brief moment, placing the empty mugs in the sink before turning back to look at the fellow redhead with a bit of a half-smile. "If you may, please don't go telling anyone I'm a clingy sleeper. I'd rather that knowledge doesn't spread."
"I'll see you to the door."
"All power tends to corrupt and absolute power corrupts absolutely. Great men are almost always bad men." - John Dalberg-Acton
Post by Lasair Landevier Lupen on Sept 22, 2016 1:19:29 GMT
“Only if there’s a chance we could do it again,” he teased with a smile before heading out the door, feeling rather happy for the moment. It was a nice feeling, calm and a bit refreshing. But, the real world needed to be returned to, and now might as well be that time.
Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Sept 22, 2016 18:15:44 GMT
"You're welcome to come over whenever you have trouble sleeping, though I'd rather refrain from the crying myself to sleep part." The redhead replied with a little smile, but honestly. She saw no evil in him crashing on her couch once in a while nor passing their hours researching magic in nights where neither of them could sleep. But the crying part was both physically and psychologically exhausting in ways she wasn't sure she could afford repeating.
Well, out the door he went, and door closed as well. Abd she was still wearing yesterday's clothes, now that she thought of it. It was about time to get changed and start her own day.
"All power tends to corrupt and absolute power corrupts absolutely. Great men are almost always bad men." - John Dalberg-Acton
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