Post by Edelweiss Fjäril on Apr 1, 2016 3:55:43 GMT
Edelweiss blinked, unmoving for a second as she tried to process what Wern had last said. Strength is a relative concept; crying did not make a person weak, and enduring didn't make a person strong. People simply grieved in different ways, and in her case, her heart wasn't even sure whether to grieve or not. Maybe she felt a little jealous then. Of Wern's emotions, and how pure they seemed to be. He could still fear and hope with no basis. He didn't have any pretences for her to crack. It was so strange... and she pondered this was a dirty feeling of hers, jealousy for something she once had but willingly casted away. She could only pray Wern wouldn't do the same someday; he'd surely regret it.
Her gaze fell on the hand that at the moment was placed on hers, as if her gloved fingers contained some sort of promise words couldn't offer. Calloused but bare, honest, trusting even... the complete opposite of hers. Smoothness covered in silky masks and secrets, and always a blade under the sleeve. How did a person like Wern find his way to that twisted city? Lodan wasn't a place for the unsullied.
Still, he wanted Amon back in his post, and wanted her help to find him. What could she say to that? What could she say to not hurt this man, yet not feel like she's fooling him?
She wanted to tell him the truth of what she knew about Amon's supposed death, but it'd be unwise to involve him. Someone did die in that shop, and if it wasn't Amon this opened another equally grim possibility. And the redhead shouldn't know of that; she only knew because she had trespassed in at the ungodly hours of the morning, before EIRAL checked the place, and used magic to check for life remains. Other clues included several missing personal belongings that would be useless to looters (what would someone do with Amon's eyesocket cleaning fluid?), and the fact a single person had managed to fool the Merchant District's security systems and transport the entire contents of a shop and habitation out in under a single night (one would have to be superhuman to do that, unless they accurately knew how those systems worked and how to bypass them as well as some not-exactly-living assistants). ...Admiting that, however, would be admitting things she should not know through legal means and that if Amon truly survived he also did plenty illegal things including slander and murder. No. Telling Wern that is out of question.
"...Is it really alright for you if I help?" She finally asked. "There are a lot of things I don't understand still. I want to search, but I need help too. Is it alright I help you look for Amon, and you help me do the same, even if there are questions I won't be able to answer?"
Her gaze fell on the hand that at the moment was placed on hers, as if her gloved fingers contained some sort of promise words couldn't offer. Calloused but bare, honest, trusting even... the complete opposite of hers. Smoothness covered in silky masks and secrets, and always a blade under the sleeve. How did a person like Wern find his way to that twisted city? Lodan wasn't a place for the unsullied.
Still, he wanted Amon back in his post, and wanted her help to find him. What could she say to that? What could she say to not hurt this man, yet not feel like she's fooling him?
She wanted to tell him the truth of what she knew about Amon's supposed death, but it'd be unwise to involve him. Someone did die in that shop, and if it wasn't Amon this opened another equally grim possibility. And the redhead shouldn't know of that; she only knew because she had trespassed in at the ungodly hours of the morning, before EIRAL checked the place, and used magic to check for life remains. Other clues included several missing personal belongings that would be useless to looters (what would someone do with Amon's eyesocket cleaning fluid?), and the fact a single person had managed to fool the Merchant District's security systems and transport the entire contents of a shop and habitation out in under a single night (one would have to be superhuman to do that, unless they accurately knew how those systems worked and how to bypass them as well as some not-exactly-living assistants). ...Admiting that, however, would be admitting things she should not know through legal means and that if Amon truly survived he also did plenty illegal things including slander and murder. No. Telling Wern that is out of question.
"...Is it really alright for you if I help?" She finally asked. "There are a lot of things I don't understand still. I want to search, but I need help too. Is it alright I help you look for Amon, and you help me do the same, even if there are questions I won't be able to answer?"